Hello ! So Today I wanted to write about my experience at GovBall in June but I wanted to bring up a serious topic that not really people discuss and I using this platform I wanted to bring it up and discuss me going through it personally ! So I bought Govball tickets in January (it was a graduation gift from finishing up college) and I was super pumped (New York Coachella) I was basically attending I never really went to a big concert like this I only attended a few mini concerts the biggest concert ive attended was probably Warped Tour last year ! So I really didn’t know what to expect, So it was the day of the concert and my sister and I were so exicted we left around 4 ish to get to the concert because the people we wanted to see such as, Brockhampton, Lil Wayne, and Tyler the Creator were performing ! So we went to the main stage after a long walk to Randall Park, Brockhampton was about to perform and we were dead in the front.. and I noticed I started to become panicky.. and I had no idea why, Ive been to so many concerts and in the front and never had this type of reaction so I started to become nervous and freaked out a little bit. But, I didn’t wanna ruin this moment and tried to stay calm with deep breathing and remebering “I am fine” “I am not gonna get hurt” “Its okay” just repeating those words in my head I slowly began to calm down. The show begins to start and the crowd is crazy it was to the point I was almost on the floor, so my sister and I left and walked towards the edge because I needed more space to breathe. Honestly if you ever experience that at all, just try to go near a space where it is less crowded no one is judging you or anything its okay ! if you need space thats fine ! After Brockhampton we went to see Lil Wayne and Tyler the Creator, we were near the back but we could still see the acts and I wasn’t crowded by so many people so I felt more okay and relaxed. It winded up being a really fun night ! The next day, it was Saturday ! that was a crazy day because we were at the concert longer than the day before and knowing myself I get tired after 5 hours being somewhere and I wanna go home LOL so yeah ! My sister and I, were waiting in the front waiting for the 1975 and out of nowhere i started to have a major panic attack to the point I couldn’t breathe and it was very scary because I haven’t experienced a full on panic attack like that since maybe 2 months ago, and I didn’t know what to do and I just wasn’t myself. Everyone in the crowd was very supportive and super nice trying to calm me down ! Thankfully, I got through it and finally calmed down and it was embarrassing I went through that with everyone watching me but everyone was super nice and just wanted to help me out ! What I wanna get out writing about this is, its okay to have a panic attack during a concert or music festival ! If you feel a little nervous tell someone or your friend youre with to let them know “Hey I feel a little off, I’m gonna stay in the back” and regroup at the end of the show ! Just always remember your safety and well-being comes first if you don’t agree with how your body is feeling its okay ! take your self out of that situation try to stand with less people and take a few calming breathes. Just remember what youre attending the concert for.. To have fun ! Enjoy the moment ! Don’t let it ruin your time ! Thanks for reading my little rant and hoped this helped anyone who read this !!
Hey Everyone !! Hope you all had a great weekend !! Even though Monday is lurking around the corner, lets enjoy this Lazy Sunday and reflect on our weekends ! So yesterday, I had no plans like ZERO and Ive been hinting a New York City trip but I was like “eh maybe not cause no one wants to go with me” Also, I never been alone in the city by myself like EVER so I was always codependent on someone when I traveled. Basically, I said “Im gonna go to the city by myself and walk around and enjoy my time !” So catched a train and was on my way ! After 2 hours and a 1 min (yes I checked the ride time because I am a total noob) I was finally there ! Took a uber to Columbus Circle to meet up with my best friend from highschool Jason !! I havent seen him in, 5 years since we both graduated highschool but we always been super close and I was so exicted to see him ! So we met at the shops near Columbus and legit we had this adorable moment when I was so exicted to see him ! Like in the movies !! Where ya havent see a person in so long and you guys get super exicted ! So basically that is what happened ! We walked around Central Park, because I was dying to see Strawberry Fields I tried to go a couple of weeks ago by myself when I stayed in the City for a music festival, but I winded up getting lost and had to call my brother who lives near the park for directions to get out of the park LOL it was very bad but I survived. Sorry about that odd flashback but, we walked around and finally found strawberry fields ! (I obviously took a photo with it) and I saw the cute boats on the water and I begged Jason to come with me and do it, and hes like nah and I was like yeah I understand. (If any cute boys reading this who would like to take me on a cute date like that pls don’t be a stranger and message me) haha so after that idea failed, Jason took some cute photos of me ! I loved how he grasped me being my happy self and enjoying the moment !! (Also they’re very good dating profile photos as well) LOL okay I have to stop ! We walked around near the met !! and went to this small tiny diner ! Also they didnt give us our iced coffee and diet coke (very mad about that still) But around 5 I left ! It was a great day !! It’s always good to reconnect with old friends from your past ! Yes, you get older , life becomes more crazy ! But the connection is always there ! When I saw Jason legit nothing has changed between us we are still the goofy kids who would sit on the bench on our off period senior year and talking about our inside jokes ! All together what I want to get out of this blog post is, be grateful for the moment and the people who still are in your life ! Even though if you havent seen them in a while or talked to them in years, talking to them you realize you stil have a connection and a close bond it makes you realize why they were in your life in the first place ! Thanks all I wanted to say and share love you guys !
Hey Everyone ! Long time no write (I thought I was being cleaver when I wrote that.. but I failed miserably) Anywhoooooo , So the reason ive been basically M.I.A for about two months. I have been writing on and off, but I started to give up and not believe what I was writing was good enough. I gave up and just delayed writing all together which was bad because I wanted to write but then I thought “Oh Ill do it later! Not a big deal !” Which made me begin to procrastinate and unmotivated and started to lose interest. A couple of weeks have passed since I last wrote, and I started not to feel like myself and I gave myself some “Me” time mostly consisted with hanging out with friends, going out exploring new places (nature preserves), and discovering my own happiness and trying to do things for myself independently . Honestly, it was the best decision to take some time off and work on myself. . Its good to take some alone time for yourself, we get so caught up on we need to get our lives together so we can live happy lives and become successful. Taking time for yourself does help you in the long run, a step back makes you become refocused on the goals and dreams you set up in the long run ! During this mini break I realized, I should not be so hard on myself in writing and in my personal life. Sometimes when we are so hard on ourselves (I know because I am my own worst critic) we give up on achieving what we want to become and goals we set out for ourselves and I noticed I was doing that and I slowly began to give up. Step by Step I started to better myself, whenever it was going away for a day doing something out of the ordinary, or exercise (yoga) , and just taking time for myself. I started to get more inspired and refocused. I think its a good thing for anyone in general to take a step back from your prioritizes in life and focus on yourself because you are the most important not other everyday tasks we focus on ! So that was my little rant ! I’ll be posting soon ! I got some good trips this month and I cant wait to write about it !! Love you all
Hey Guys ! Sorry I haven’t written in a while.. Life is super crazy at the moment ! Now that Summer is around the corner, Ive been trying to go out more to enjoy the warm weather and we have longer time with sunlight (Perks of the Summer) Ive been planning trips and buying tickets to go see some my favorite artist perform live (Tame Impala and Govball bless up 2019 already) and my friend Susan asked if I wanted to go shopping and of course I said yes because I needed new clothes 😛 So we went out to the Outlets and we got some Starbucks and when we were talking my eyes went straight to that LONG ISLAND SUNSET and my first thought was “I need a photo” so we jumped out of our seats and got in Susan’s car and chased that sunset. We looked up the closet beach near by, so we drove there and walked down closer to the beach and the view was amazing !!
As we got to the bottom of the stairs we saw how amazing the view looked I felt like I was seeing cotton candy in the sky ! It was totally breath taking, Susan and I (Mostly me) was freaking out screaming about how beautiful the sunset was and how we are so lucky we are in this moment ! She was laughing at my pure excitement. The little things in life, going on unexpected trips and hanging out with your friends! This is what I live for happy moments with others.
I am just gonna post all the photos I took when I was there ! CAN WE JUST NOTICE HOW THERE IS NO VSCO FILTER AND THIS IN REAL LIFE CAN WE JUST TAKE A MOMENT !! In conclusion, I just want to let everyone know, this summer we should just explore and enjoy each-others company we are all in good moods because the summer time is here ! We should make new memories, meet new people, escape our comfort zone ! BE IN THE MOMENT ENJOY THE TIME ! Sometimes when you least expect it something amazing comes out of a memory ! (: The goal I wanna put out there for Summer of 2019 or just 2019 in general get out of the house, explore new places you never been too, go to that concert by yourself and enjoy the music, talk to that person you have a crush on, and just don’t let anything hold you back ! Live in the moment and see what happens, my new motto ! Don’t expect anything go in with a clear mind and something good will come out of it ! Take the chance !! What’s the worst thing that could happen? Anywho, thanks for reading guys ! Sorry I haven’t been posting in a while, I’m gonna start to write again now I have some cool things happening this summer and im really excited to share with everyone !!
Hi Everyone ! The Weather is starting to become nicer here on Long Island ! I decided to take the advantage and do something fun and explore ! My friend and I want to go out more this summer and travel around the Island. Yesterday, we went to Pirates Cove on Long Island ! It’s this amazing place you walk on sand dunes and see the whole area of the sound. It’s a great place to clear your mind, enjoy the smell of the beach (Sea Salt mostly), the sound of the waves hitting the rocks, and avoid hitting the rocks on your feet. It was a great way to get out of the house and enjoy the calmness and beauty of nature. When you go out and escape your comfort zone lets say your house is a comfort zone for safety. When you decide to let go of your fears and just let everything take its course you can do amazing things! My goal for the summer of 2019, is go out and enjoy nature more with my friends, take walks, have long talks, and just explore.
As I continue to insert my artsy photos with the help of Vsco filters, I feel I’m a inspiring photographer wanting to be discovered. But I started getting into taking photos of nature because its so beautiful and calming to look at, Sometimes if we go outside for a moment and enjoy the oxygen from outside, It can change our whole entire mood and help us feel more relaxed. When my friend Dominique and I, decided to go out we parked near this house which we couldn’t do and winded up getting a ticket (also we trespassed so don’t be like us) I never been to Pirates Cove so I was excited to go and experience a new place ! I had no idea we had to climb so much and I began to worry, because my cardio level is below negative and I just have good flexibility. So I was like welp.. here we go!
Here is the whole view of Pirates Cove! I was so amazed at the view I had to take a photo (Perfect photo opportunity) I felt as I was on top of the world, I felt so free and amazed. Like everything in my mind I was worried on concerned about left my head and it was focused on the beauty of what was surrounding me. I was so amazed what was right in front of me, I felt as if I was looking at a picture I found on Instagram or Google Pics but I saw it with my own two eyes in the moment. When going somewhere in nature, just embrace the moment all the problems just go away and we should encourage more of people taking walks or just being outside. I noticed it has helped a lot with myself, when I struggle or have a bad day. I feel more relaxed and calm. We walked up and down, and walked on some rocks near the beach while doing some yoga!
After we walked around and talked we decided to finally go back home and get some food after our good workout. I saw how far we had to walk up the sand dune and my first thought was “Oh my god I am going to die” and I was determined to walk up this TERRIBLE sand dune to the point I thought I was going to pass out, and I saw this beautiful angle of the water as I turned to my left and I said out loud to my friend “I AM GOING TO PASS OUT BUT I NEED TO TAKE A PHOTO RIGHT NOW!!!” Again, bless up VSCO! It totally helped with my photography skills which I am shocked that I have but I am totally getting into the whole hobby of taking photos!! Finally, after running up the sand dune for 30 minutes, I ruined my running shoes to the point I had to throw them out (I am still sad about it) but, It was a great way to get out and explore something new areas where I live! What I want to encourage everyone from this blog post is, I want everyone for a part of your day, try to go out and enjoy some time outside! Now that the weather is getting nicer I want to go out and explore, enjoy the moment! We should all enjoy the moment we are on this earth for a reason! We should focus on our needs first more than anything else! When we focus on our needs first, we feel encouraged to do more things and feel better about ourselves mentally and physically! It can have a positive affect on us ! Thanks for reading guys !
Hi Everyone! Today I wanna focus on the importance of our negative thoughts how it can consume our day. Sometimes we need a distraction to remove those thoughts and focus/ distract us when we are having a bad day. IF you put our energy into something else, we stay focus and determined. If we work on a activity it can help us block out the world and put are focus on the activity we are all working on to feel complete. For example, I always wanted to go back into drawing I am not the greatest but it does help me focus on something else and escape my mind. So today, it was a beautiful day out and wanted to escape my room for a bit and enjoy the weather. Did some yoga to put myself in a good mood while drinking some water, and decided to write a quote “I’m still growing” I believe we are still growing as we get older, finding out what we like or dislike, what do we really enjoy doing, and find the true meaning of happiness. I believe I am still growing as a person, still going through good and bad times to help me become a stronger person. I’m still learning about myself, at the age of 22 and I’m excited but still nervous to see what will happen in the future. When I was drawing this I thought about plants (just like the old saying “Plants make People Happy” which I finally realized was true) My favorite plant is a sunflower, I went to a sunflower field over the summer and It was so beautiful and amazing. I wanted to resemble myself as a sunflower I am standing tall and through my ups and downs im going to make it through while standing strong. During the day while drawing this I stayed focus listening to some calming music I created on my playlist. Feeling relaxed and calm I believe art really helps me forget about the worries I have in the world. I believe if we focus on something to get our minds off of certain things we can excel and find true happiness and joy through the process.
Hey Guys!! Sorry I haven’t posted in a while, Ive been crazy busy. A couple of days ago I was deciding what to post… My dad wanted to do something creative with me (creative minds think alike) So we came up with this idea, (The video above will show what I am talking about) Sometimes we go through our day afraid to “jump out” of our own skin. We don’t take chances or we are too involved in our routine we don’t start something new or mix it up. I notice this in my personal life, sometimes I don’t wanna take a chance or a leap into something new I get scared and insecure. When we decide to let go of our insecurities, it is honestly the best feeling in the world. Anyways thank for reading this post I know its super short but I wanted to write something because I haven’t written in a while! Thanks for reading guys !!