Hi Everyone ! I know its been forever since we last talked or spoken.. This week is focused on Mental Health Awareness, and I wanted to share about my struggle the past couple of months with dealing with depression and anxiety. So its been hard for me ever since I finished up at college and gotten my associates degree on what I wanted to do with my life after, Whats my next phase? What should I do next? It hard to know that my fellow peers my age are getting their bachelors degree and moving on to bigger and better things, and it was hard for me to see stuff on social media and I started to isolate myself from everyone. Every time someone would ask me “Hey Brooke so what are you doing now?” I would take it more of an insult, and become very defensive. It was to the point I would avoid certain family events or gatherings because my anxiety was so bad that I didn’t wanna be involved and wanted to hide from everyone. I felt so lost and I decided to give sometime to myself not isolating myself but focusing on my goals and work on myself to become better and stronger mentally. So I looked for an outlet to express myself I turned to writing and photography ! It was a fun way to express myself and wanted to show a different side I love to write to express my feelings and it helps me feel better writing my views on certain situation or if I go somewhere or experience something and I love talking about it to other people ! The Creative Outlook is amazing I met some amazing people and reconnect with old friends ! Being Creative has helped me calm down my anxiety and got myself in a better positive mindset. For this week, I want everyone to focus on yourself and your mental health and remember if youre having a bad day just remember to talk to someone and people want to see you happy and succeed !!
Hi Everyone ! Its been a couple of days since I last wrote, sorry for going M.I.A. for a while I have been on and off with writing a new blog post because I haven’t felt really inspired the past couple of days or should I say weeks.. So I kind of went missing and taking some time to myself. But, the other day while I was getting ready to go out I always put a movie on to hear some background noise when I get ready and I decided to watch Lost in Translation with Scarlett Johansson and Bill Murray, I never really knew the background of the movie I just remembered when I was little my mom had the Dvd in the house and I saw the iconic photo of Bill Murray in a bathrope in a hotel room. But, I was only 6 when I saw it and I was super confused. But, the movie was about two people Bob who is a famous actor and Charlotte who is staying with her photographer husband feeling very lost in their lives and are currently staying in a hotel in Japan. They feel lost not having any connection with the people because of the language barrier. Watching the movie I connected with the main character Charlotte, she is around my age and she was dealing with depression feeling like she cant tell anyone about whats going on with her making herself isolated from everyone. She is not happy in her marriage and she feels lost with where she is going in life and wants to find the true meaning of happiness. I related to her a lot as someone who just finished up college in the winter and still feels lost on what I wanna do and started to overthink “its not gonna get better” “everything sucks right” after I finished up with college I started to get sad and not feel like myself, I felt lost and confused with what was going on around me and I felt so isolated from the world. I think this movie helps a lot with dealing with depression or how it feels going through it, It was crazy how much I related to the main character . The one line that stood out to me the most is when she is talking to the another main character Bob in the hotel room and asks, “Does it get better?” at first he says “no” and then “yes” I related to this a lot because I always asked myself in my head “Will I get better” “Will it become easier” but in reality, life is hard and difficult but you can get through it no matter what ! Its normal to feel sad but it will get better you just need good people who surround you and encourage you to be the best person you can be !
Hey Everyone ! How is everyone’s day going ? I’m always bad at starting these blogs because I have no idea what to say first so I usually write the first thing that comes to mind and go along with it haha ! Also, wanna mention I made a new logo for the blog ! (I mean shes cute, shes a winner) Currently making changes to make it pop more !! If you guys have any ideas for me let me know ! I wanna give it more of that wow factor ! Sorry off topic ! 🙂 Anyways, I wanna talk about Summer how we get all excited because the weather is finally warm , we can do so many more activities, and creating more memories ! This Summer, I was so excited to go out more and do things I haven’t experienced (legit made a summer bucket list because I am basically 5 years old) I always wanna have fun during the summer time and live everyday like its my last ! Then, i started to get distracted by certain situations and people. I was putting my time and energy on people and situations that I shouldn’t have dwelled on to begin with, but in the moment I had caught myself and realized “Why am I doing this to myself?” So I took a step back and reanalyzed everything that had happened for the past month and got myself together. I decided to take a week or two by myself and try to focus on me, Mental Health is very important if you have to take a break and just focus on yourself there is nothing wrong with that ! I’m really thankful for my friends and family who were super understanding with my decision ! Being by myself I realized who much the people in my inner circle really care about me and want me to the best person that I am , it made me forget about the other things that were going on and made me more confident to better myself ! I think when we feel lost or you get distracted by everyday events we should stop everything and remember what makes us happy ? who in my life really cares about me ? and how will I move on from this will I become stronger or will this make me weaker. I think negative situations that happen in our life, make us stronger and realize we can move on and be grateful how we overcame the situation. This is why im just focusing on myself this summer trying to become a better person ! Using my creativity, following through my goals, and working hard ! Working on yourself can give you positive feedback and feeling good about yourself internally. When you feel good about yourself it reflects in who you are as a person and the people you attract in your life !!
Hi Everyone ! The Weather is starting to become nicer here on Long Island ! I decided to take the advantage and do something fun and explore ! My friend and I want to go out more this summer and travel around the Island. Yesterday, we went to Pirates Cove on Long Island ! It’s this amazing place you walk on sand dunes and see the whole area of the sound. It’s a great place to clear your mind, enjoy the smell of the beach (Sea Salt mostly), the sound of the waves hitting the rocks, and avoid hitting the rocks on your feet. It was a great way to get out of the house and enjoy the calmness and beauty of nature. When you go out and escape your comfort zone lets say your house is a comfort zone for safety. When you decide to let go of your fears and just let everything take its course you can do amazing things! My goal for the summer of 2019, is go out and enjoy nature more with my friends, take walks, have long talks, and just explore.
As I continue to insert my artsy photos with the help of Vsco filters, I feel I’m a inspiring photographer wanting to be discovered. But I started getting into taking photos of nature because its so beautiful and calming to look at, Sometimes if we go outside for a moment and enjoy the oxygen from outside, It can change our whole entire mood and help us feel more relaxed. When my friend Dominique and I, decided to go out we parked near this house which we couldn’t do and winded up getting a ticket (also we trespassed so don’t be like us) I never been to Pirates Cove so I was excited to go and experience a new place ! I had no idea we had to climb so much and I began to worry, because my cardio level is below negative and I just have good flexibility. So I was like welp.. here we go!
Here is the whole view of Pirates Cove! I was so amazed at the view I had to take a photo (Perfect photo opportunity) I felt as I was on top of the world, I felt so free and amazed. Like everything in my mind I was worried on concerned about left my head and it was focused on the beauty of what was surrounding me. I was so amazed what was right in front of me, I felt as if I was looking at a picture I found on Instagram or Google Pics but I saw it with my own two eyes in the moment. When going somewhere in nature, just embrace the moment all the problems just go away and we should encourage more of people taking walks or just being outside. I noticed it has helped a lot with myself, when I struggle or have a bad day. I feel more relaxed and calm. We walked up and down, and walked on some rocks near the beach while doing some yoga!
After we walked around and talked we decided to finally go back home and get some food after our good workout. I saw how far we had to walk up the sand dune and my first thought was “Oh my god I am going to die” and I was determined to walk up this TERRIBLE sand dune to the point I thought I was going to pass out, and I saw this beautiful angle of the water as I turned to my left and I said out loud to my friend “I AM GOING TO PASS OUT BUT I NEED TO TAKE A PHOTO RIGHT NOW!!!” Again, bless up VSCO! It totally helped with my photography skills which I am shocked that I have but I am totally getting into the whole hobby of taking photos!! Finally, after running up the sand dune for 30 minutes, I ruined my running shoes to the point I had to throw them out (I am still sad about it) but, It was a great way to get out and explore something new areas where I live! What I want to encourage everyone from this blog post is, I want everyone for a part of your day, try to go out and enjoy some time outside! Now that the weather is getting nicer I want to go out and explore, enjoy the moment! We should all enjoy the moment we are on this earth for a reason! We should focus on our needs first more than anything else! When we focus on our needs first, we feel encouraged to do more things and feel better about ourselves mentally and physically! It can have a positive affect on us ! Thanks for reading guys !
How many of you wake up and the first thing you do is get out your phone and scroll through all your social media apps, I am mostly talking about Snapchat or Instagram. When we go on snapchat we look at everyone’s stories, seeing the new apartment they just got, going to that music festival you couldn’t get tickets for, the amazing trips in different countries, and trying out new amazing food from that new restaurant. But, I mostly want to focus on Instagram and start a conversation on how it can impact us negatively and positively.
I wanted to share my personal experience about Instagram, last summer I was going through a lot I was not happy and went through a hard time. I didn’t want anyone to know how I was feeling so I portrayed a “Happier” version of myself on social media. I saw this quote on Instagram that spoke to me a lot and it said,
“Instagram is your own personal little vision board, use it manifest your visions instead of posting reminders of your pain.” That spoke to me a lot, and decided let me delete all my dumb selfies in my bedroom, pictures I took years ago but reposted on Instagram, and my terrible attempt of drawing the little mermaid and gave up, drew her a sweater. Last summer, I was just so focused on my Instagram so focused on getting a lot of followers and gaining more likes. That was my true happiness during the time, which leads me to the conversation.. The one thing I don’t like about Instagram we are so obsessed with followers who looks at our feed, the likes we get, we have to delete our photo if it doesn’t get more than 100 likes, and how it is a competition to see how “popular” we are and who likes us the most. It can ruin our self esteem feeling as if we aren’t good enough, making us worried we are not living our life to the fullest and we start to view ourselves as “Lame”
I was so worried every time I lost a follower or didn’t get that many likes, I began to think to myself “Am I not pretty, fun, or interesting?” I began that summer planning trips to go upstate and go to the city, thinking you know if I go around and have fun people will be more interested and think “Hey Brooke is pretty cool!” The thing I am trying to point out is, I was more excited to take some cool photos and show everyone what I was doing! People are so invested in taking “The Best Photo” editing the photo, thinking of a clever caption, and watching all the likes come up on their home screen that they don’t enjoy the moment the time being on the time or hanging out with your friends, we are more focused on taking cute photos and posting the picture on Instagram. Also, Instagram is not a way for you to be “happy” I am not happy how we are in a society that we get so excited if we get so many likes on a photo or how many followers we have, that is not true happiness. Again, this is just my point of view on Instagram but I believe it takes over people’s lives and we don’t look beyond social media. I admit, I am guilty towards being obsessed with Instagram with reposting photos because it didn’t get as many likes, and if I hit 200+ likes on my photo I get excited. But, we have to remember this.. It is just a photo. We don’t know their whole story and who they are as a photo we just how they want to portray themselves on Social Media.
I shared my views on social media when I discussed about my body issues and the way I viewed myself based on, seeing girls looking amazing on Instagram and me feeling depressed and not good enough. One of my followers on Instagram, Mike had reached out to me about my blog post about my discussion about being body positive. I feel we need a platform to discuss the good and bad about social media and how we should change it, make it more positive besides feeling as if we are in a competition. Mike had told me he is working to become a psychologist and specializing in eating disorders. We both talked about how we struggled with our body images. Hoe we both take a day out and to focus on ourselves and the process of our self improvement. I want to share his point of view on the direction and influence of social media, (Also he should definitely start a blog because I saw so much truth in his writing!)
“The names that time will remember are those who resonate the most to specific audiences. The music created by legacy is composed by many, working collaboratively on a song of purpose, perseverance, insight and wisdom. This is a time where people are hungry for inspiration, compassion, affirmation, and knowledge. People want to learn, and they want to feel what they learn at an emotional level. They want to be entertained while simultaneously amazed. We’re dying for the next real and relatable underdog story. We have no idea who we can trust with our hope and our support, but we invest in those who put themselves on the front line, those who call themselves ‘influencers.’ Simply put, the definition of the term ‘influencer’ has become flexible. What will inspire society to exceed the boundaries that keep them grounded? We need voices that will elevate us and bring us to a new level of lifestyle satisfaction. We need not boundaries, we need more than names. We need heroes. So many characters have dominated Instagram with the image they present to the world, which is far from their authentic personalities. People aren’t required to post their baggage on social media. So we aspire to be like these people who aren’t posting their full selves in their #SundaySelfies. We’re living comparatively at the expense of self esteem. I firmly believe that people should be helping others, without the gratification and vanity brought by popularity. We need to abandon the ‘SELF help’ movement and work toward a ‘help others’ movement. We need to refuse boastful pride and judgment and move toward kindness and compassion. I’m noticing a trend. I see people shy away from presenting their valuable thoughts and ideas to the world because they feel that they aren’t enough. They refrain from posting their personal progress-whether it’s career progress, academic achievement, gym accomplishments, or anything that anyone else may say “Well…someone else did it better.” For the sake of self esteem, let’s change the direction that influence is heading. Let’s do all that we can to become influencers in our own regard. Let’s be more than just a picture on someone else’s Instagram feed. Let’s take back the role of ‘hero’ in our own stories and let us do so as our authentic, real, raw, selves. Let’s embrace imperfection and acknowledge love and progress for those who have come a long way with us. Let’s empower others and be part of the story rather than scroll through and pass through like ghosts. A movement is started with a single step.”
I believe we should end the stigma of the “Competition” that we see on Instagram and focus more on encouraging people ! Yes, I do believe Instagram and Social Media is a great platform to show your hobbies and ideas and It’s a great step in the right direction to become noticed by companies! But, at the same time the competition aspect can really damage a person’s self esteem and hurt them in the process. So my goal is to end, the struggle to become noticed or feel “good”and feel confident and post whatever you feel like posting and not be concerned on how people view yourself. Anyways thank you guys for reading this ! I hope we can join together and focus on the positive aspect of Instagram and end the negativity that comes along with it.
Today I woke up in a funk, I didn’t want to do anything and just stay in bed for the rest of the day. It was weird, last week I felt so good and feeling positive and out of the blue my negative thoughts had resurfaced back.. I didn’t want it to affect my day. Finally, getting out of my bed I decided to make myself a cup of coffee and put some comfy clothes on the best thing to do is get out of your pajamas. Try putting on some comfy jeans and a cute cardigan, which I did my mom had encouraged me to come out to look at some cute spring clothes and the local Marshall’s. Getting distracted by doing something such as going shopping and looking for cute clothes focuses your attention on something else, by looking at the clothes you get excited by, thinking about where you would wear it, how it would look on you, and how you would feel confident wearing the outfit. After shopping I went to eat some lunch, enjoyed a hamburger with french fries with my mom. It’s good to get out when you are eating you are surrounded by other people and can have meaningful conversations with the people you are with and enjoy each other company. After, we came back home I went back upstairs and listened to my music I realized I shouldn’t be in my room doing nothing and got up and went on a walk. I put my shoes on and blasted Panic at the Disco! on my phone and began to walk, I focused on the music playing and looked what was right in front of me. Walking sometimes helps you get out of your mind and gets you to think what you have in the moment. If you are angry or something, kick a rock and continue to walk I look at it like this when you are walking look at it like a path. There are going to be stumbles along the way but we still have to walk along the way to our beautiful destination. What I am trying to say in this post is, we go through our ups and downs and it is our decision on how to overcome the problem that is right in front of us. Its okay to go through bad times, it makes us stronger as individuals and we will see the light at the end of the road. Just remember to keep your head up and accept the sad days, you will get better !
This is the first Christmas were I decided not to get all dolled up, I felt so insecure about my body. I couldn’t even wear I dress without feeling disgusting in it, looking at my stomach, thighs, and my arms. Looking at this photo right now you all are probably thinking, “Brooke what are you talking about, you aren’t even fat”. But, it was much deeper than that I was not happy with myself and it started to reflect on my physical appearance. Sometimes when you get down on yourself, it begins to reflect on yourself and your interactions with others. One of the reasons of me being so down on myself was, I hated my body. I let myself go, it was to the point I would eat all the time for comfort and didn’t even care what I had put inside my body. It was to the point I would have to wear big sweatshirts and sweatpants to feel comfortable in my own skin. It was to the point I had to wear spankx under neath my clothes when I would go out.
In this photo you can see myself wearing the sphanx, every time I would go out with my friends I would compare myself to all the other girls at the bar. That was one of the worst things I did, compare myself to other people based on physical appearance. Now a days with social media such as, Instagram it’s very hard for people to compare themselves to others in their selfies, trips, and showing off their body. I tried to loose weight but not in a good way, I tried to eat only one meal a day, stayed in bed all day didn’t so I wouldn’t eat, and wouldn’t even attempt to work out. I wanted to change and wanted to be happy but I had no idea how to start, one day i realized I had to get out of this funk I was so adapted to and start doing something. Little baby steps can make a big impact on your life, you have to leave the comfort zone to grow as a person. If you stay in your comfort zone for the rest of your life how are you suppose to grow as a individual? Taking these steps will help you go on the right path and work towards your goals to find true happiness.
This is me now, I started to eat more healthier and I began to join a yoga studio near my house and I feel good emotionally and mentally. I didn’t care about loosing weight like I was in the past, all that matter is that I was happy and I take some time out of my day to work out and relax my mind. In the photo, this was my first time wearing a crop top in 8 months and a skirt. I felt super confident, and did not care what anyone else looked like and carried out my own positive light the whole night I was with my friends and just focused on the good. I’m now in a comfortable position to say “I Love my Body” I realized if you put the time and effort into yourself the outcome will be successful. What i’m trying to say is we are all beautiful and our bodies come in all different shape and sizes. We have the power to change how we feel by taking actions and working hard for our goals. Right now, I am in a good place physically and mentally focusing on the good while doing things that make me happy and I feel great eternally and it reflects in my spirit and the way I carry myself.