Trying to have the “Perfect Beach Body”

Hey Guys ! So today I was feeling sick, and decided to have a productive day and write ! So I wanted to talk about Body Image, Ive been struggling to be happy with my body on and off for a couple of years now.. and its not easy. Somedays I think “Oh my god I feel good and I look good ! It’s gonna be a great day !” and then other days (mostly before I get my period or if im having an off day) I’m like “Yeah I look like crap and feel fat im gonna wear all baggy clothes and not care” This Summer I have been confident in my body and feeling good about myself when I go out and everything ! But, mostly its been hard when I wear a bathing suit or bikini mostly. I went to buy a bikini at Aerie and I felt disgusting and fat, and legit started to cry and thought “Why am I so ugly” and take it off automatically and get in a bad mood. I think its also hard with social media, with photos and always judging yourself thinking you arent good enough or beautiful enough ! I felt more comfortable in a one piece to hide my stomach, I think when you go out or wear a bathingsuit if you feel comfortable and cute at the same time it doesnt matter ! Like now, when I wear a one piece I thought to myself damn I look good ! But, sometimes it can be hard when I look at myself in a photo mostly a photo of me in a bathing suit , I try to suck in my belly, Try to move in a different angle, and use the filters to make myself skinner. i decided to show a picture of me, with no filter or anything ! just my body and accept it for what it is ! Embrace the curves !! Be happy with what I got !! Accept what I have and work with it , this photo makes me realize I am beautiful and I dont need a filter to hide my cellulite on my thighs or make myself Skinner. Or make my ass look bigger , I like the way I look even though sometimes it is hard to pick on myself on the little things, but I am reminded by everyone how beautiful I am inside and out !! That is all that matters !!

Ever watch a movie you can relate too so much ?

Hi Everyone ! Its been a couple of days since I last wrote, sorry for going M.I.A. for a while I have been on and off with writing a new blog post because I haven’t felt really inspired the past couple of days or should I say weeks.. So I kind of went missing and taking some time to myself. But, the other day while I was getting ready to go out I always put a movie on to hear some background noise when I get ready and I decided to watch Lost in Translation with Scarlett Johansson and Bill Murray, I never really knew the background of the movie I just remembered when I was little my mom had the Dvd in the house and I saw the iconic photo of Bill Murray in a bathrope in a hotel room. But, I was only 6 when I saw it and I was super confused. But, the movie was about two people Bob who is a famous actor and Charlotte who is staying with her photographer husband feeling very lost in their lives and are currently staying in a hotel in Japan. They feel lost not having any connection with the people because of the language barrier. Watching the movie I connected with the main character Charlotte, she is around my age and she was dealing with depression feeling like she cant tell anyone about whats going on with her making herself isolated from everyone. She is not happy in her marriage and she feels lost with where she is going in life and wants to find the true meaning of happiness. I related to her a lot as someone who just finished up college in the winter and still feels lost on what I wanna do and started to overthink “its not gonna get better” “everything sucks right” after I finished up with college I started to get sad and not feel like myself, I felt lost and confused with what was going on around me and I felt so isolated from the world. I think this movie helps a lot with dealing with depression or how it feels going through it, It was crazy how much I related to the main character . The one line that stood out to me the most is when she is talking to the another main character Bob in the hotel room and asks, “Does it get better?” at first he says “no” and then “yes” I related to this a lot because I always asked myself in my head “Will I get better” “Will it become easier” but in reality, life is hard and difficult but you can get through it no matter what ! Its normal to feel sad but it will get better you just need good people who surround you and encourage you to be the best person you can be !

Express your Creativity !!

Hey Guys ! Whats up ? How is life ? Happy Friday !! Super stoked for the weekend !! So Today was super fun, I went out and explored with my friend Caitlin ! We were planning to go to a sunflower field because Ive been dying to go since Summer started but sadly, no sunflowers because they have not bloomed yet.. such a bummer. So we decided to go Downport, and take some photos and video ! I was super stocked because I love to create (As you can tell by this photo) Haha ! Also, I love to surround myself with people who love to be creative with photography and videography ! In a way it totally encourages me to be creative as well, because I am always worried that I am not good enough or in the back of my head I’m like “Ugh what if someone sees it and shows their friends and makes fun of me !” But, I noticed when I do that I give up on attempting to create or just don’t do it! If its something you love do it ! If it gives you joy ? Do it ! Why should peoples opinions affect you ? If it makes you happy and you love doing it ! Since I was a little girl, Ive been surrounded by creativity my dad is an amazing artist and he is also a videographer ! He has such an amazing eye and produced such amazing content (even though I sometimes make fun of him but its out of love) and I grew up knowing I wanted to do something like that ! Also, I love being around creative people, it really helps out when we can collab and discuss about photography/ writing !! Today, I decided to make tiny 60 second video of my trip with Caitlin and we had a photoshoot (Legit theyre some good ass tinder pictures if you ask me 😉 ) Haha!! It was such a positive day ! I had so much fun exploring and creating !! I love going out with friends and going to places its a great way to express my art in photography and now videography (maybe my dad would be so happy I am following his footsteps) We should totally express creativity ! Its such a beautiful thing ! Seeing the world in eyes of the photographer ! Seeing the beauty in the world !! I hope we all express our skills and hobbys !! ❤ Because, its pretty fucking cool and it makes you become all positive and happy !! (:

Brooke(:

Focusing on my Goals and Happiness this Summer !

Hey Everyone ! How is everyone’s day going ? I’m always bad at starting these blogs because I have no idea what to say first so I usually write the first thing that comes to mind and go along with it haha ! Also, wanna mention I made a new logo for the blog ! (I mean shes cute, shes a winner) Currently making changes to make it pop more !! If you guys have any ideas for me let me know ! I wanna give it more of that wow factor ! Sorry off topic ! 🙂 Anyways, I wanna talk about Summer how we get all excited because the weather is finally warm , we can do so many more activities, and creating more memories ! This Summer, I was so excited to go out more and do things I haven’t experienced (legit made a summer bucket list because I am basically 5 years old) I always wanna have fun during the summer time and live everyday like its my last ! Then, i started to get distracted by certain situations and people. I was putting my time and energy on people and situations that I shouldn’t have dwelled on to begin with, but in the moment I had caught myself and realized “Why am I doing this to myself?” So I took a step back and reanalyzed everything that had happened for the past month and got myself together. I decided to take a week or two by myself and try to focus on me, Mental Health is very important if you have to take a break and just focus on yourself there is nothing wrong with that ! I’m really thankful for my friends and family who were super understanding with my decision ! Being by myself I realized who much the people in my inner circle really care about me and want me to the best person that I am , it made me forget about the other things that were going on and made me more confident to better myself ! I think when we feel lost or you get distracted by everyday events we should stop everything and remember what makes us happy ? who in my life really cares about me ? and how will I move on from this will I become stronger or will this make me weaker. I think negative situations that happen in our life, make us stronger and realize we can move on and be grateful how we overcame the situation. This is why im just focusing on myself this summer trying to become a better person ! Using my creativity, following through my goals, and working hard ! Working on yourself can give you positive feedback and feeling good about yourself internally. When you feel good about yourself it reflects in who you are as a person and the people you attract in your life !!

Brooke(:

As T.I. and Rhianna once said.. “So Live Ya Life!!”

Hey Everyone !! Hope you all had a great weekend !! Even though Monday is lurking around the corner, lets enjoy this Lazy Sunday and reflect on our weekends ! So yesterday, I had no plans like ZERO and Ive been hinting a New York City trip but I was like “eh maybe not cause no one wants to go with me” Also, I never been alone in the city by myself like EVER so I was always codependent on someone when I traveled. Basically, I said “Im gonna go to the city by myself and walk around and enjoy my time !” So catched a train and was on my way ! After 2 hours and a 1 min (yes I checked the ride time because I am a total noob) I was finally there ! Took a uber to Columbus Circle to meet up with my best friend from highschool Jason !! I havent seen him in, 5 years since we both graduated highschool but we always been super close and I was so exicted to see him ! So we met at the shops near Columbus and legit we had this adorable moment when I was so exicted to see him ! Like in the movies !! Where ya havent see a person in so long and you guys get super exicted ! So basically that is what happened ! We walked around Central Park, because I was dying to see Strawberry Fields I tried to go a couple of weeks ago by myself when I stayed in the City for a music festival, but I winded up getting lost and had to call my brother who lives near the park for directions to get out of the park LOL it was very bad but I survived. Sorry about that odd flashback but, we walked around and finally found strawberry fields ! (I obviously took a photo with it) and I saw the cute boats on the water and I begged Jason to come with me and do it, and hes like nah and I was like yeah I understand. (If any cute boys reading this who would like to take me on a cute date like that pls don’t be a stranger and message me) haha so after that idea failed, Jason took some cute photos of me ! I loved how he grasped me being my happy self and enjoying the moment !! (Also they’re very good dating profile photos as well) LOL okay I have to stop ! We walked around near the met !! and went to this small tiny diner ! Also they didnt give us our iced coffee and diet coke (very mad about that still) But around 5 I left ! It was a great day !! It’s always good to reconnect with old friends from your past ! Yes, you get older , life becomes more crazy ! But the connection is always there ! When I saw Jason legit nothing has changed between us we are still the goofy kids who would sit on the bench on our off period senior year and talking about our inside jokes ! All together what I want to get out of this blog post is, be grateful for the moment and the people who still are in your life ! Even though if you havent seen them in a while or talked to them in years, talking to them you realize you stil have a connection and a close bond it makes you realize why they were in your life in the first place ! Thanks all I wanted to say and share love you guys !

Brooke(:

Goal of Summer 2019.. Be in the Moment and Chase after Sunsets (:

Hey Guys ! Sorry I haven’t written in a while.. Life is super crazy at the moment ! Now that Summer is around the corner, Ive been trying to go out more to enjoy the warm weather and we have longer time with sunlight (Perks of the Summer) Ive been planning trips and buying tickets to go see some my favorite artist perform live (Tame Impala and Govball bless up 2019 already) and my friend Susan asked if I wanted to go shopping and of course I said yes because I needed new clothes 😛 So we went out to the Outlets and we got some Starbucks and when we were talking my eyes went straight to that LONG ISLAND SUNSET and my first thought was “I need a photo” so we jumped out of our seats and got in Susan’s car and chased that sunset. We looked up the closet beach near by, so we drove there and walked down closer to the beach and the view was amazing !!

As we got to the bottom of the stairs we saw how amazing the view looked I felt like I was seeing cotton candy in the sky ! It was totally breath taking, Susan and I (Mostly me) was freaking out screaming about how beautiful the sunset was and how we are so lucky we are in this moment ! She was laughing at my pure excitement. The little things in life, going on unexpected trips and hanging out with your friends! This is what I live for happy moments with others.

I am just gonna post all the photos I took when I was there ! CAN WE JUST NOTICE HOW THERE IS NO VSCO FILTER AND THIS IN REAL LIFE CAN WE JUST TAKE A MOMENT !! In conclusion, I just want to let everyone know, this summer we should just explore and enjoy each-others company we are all in good moods because the summer time is here ! We should make new memories, meet new people, escape our comfort zone ! BE IN THE MOMENT ENJOY THE TIME ! Sometimes when you least expect it something amazing comes out of a memory ! (: The goal I wanna put out there for Summer of 2019 or just 2019 in general get out of the house, explore new places you never been too, go to that concert by yourself and enjoy the music, talk to that person you have a crush on, and just don’t let anything hold you back ! Live in the moment and see what happens, my new motto ! Don’t expect anything go in with a clear mind and something good will come out of it ! Take the chance !! What’s the worst thing that could happen? Anywho, thanks for reading guys ! Sorry I haven’t been posting in a while, I’m gonna start to write again now I have some cool things happening this summer and im really excited to share with everyone !!

Brooke(:

Wanna Escape your negative thoughts.. take a Nature Walk !

Hi Everyone ! The Weather is starting to become nicer here on Long Island ! I decided to take the advantage and do something fun and explore ! My friend and I want to go out more this summer and travel around the Island. Yesterday, we went to Pirates Cove on Long Island ! It’s this amazing place you walk on sand dunes and see the whole area of the sound. It’s a great place to clear your mind, enjoy the smell of the beach (Sea Salt mostly), the sound of the waves hitting the rocks, and avoid hitting the rocks on your feet. It was a great way to get out of the house and enjoy the calmness and beauty of nature. When you go out and escape your comfort zone lets say your house is a comfort zone for safety. When you decide to let go of your fears and just let everything take its course you can do amazing things! My goal for the summer of 2019, is go out and enjoy nature more with my friends, take walks, have long talks, and just explore.

As I continue to insert my artsy photos with the help of Vsco filters, I feel I’m a inspiring photographer wanting to be discovered. But I started getting into taking photos of nature because its so beautiful and calming to look at, Sometimes if we go outside for a moment and enjoy the oxygen from outside, It can change our whole entire mood and help us feel more relaxed. When my friend Dominique and I, decided to go out we parked near this house which we couldn’t do and winded up getting a ticket (also we trespassed so don’t be like us) I never been to Pirates Cove so I was excited to go and experience a new place ! I had no idea we had to climb so much and I began to worry, because my cardio level is below negative and I just have good flexibility. So I was like welp.. here we go!

Here is the whole view of Pirates Cove! I was so amazed at the view I had to take a photo (Perfect photo opportunity) I felt as I was on top of the world, I felt so free and amazed. Like everything in my mind I was worried on concerned about left my head and it was focused on the beauty of what was surrounding me. I was so amazed what was right in front of me, I felt as if I was looking at a picture I found on Instagram or Google Pics but I saw it with my own two eyes in the moment. When going somewhere in nature, just embrace the moment all the problems just go away and we should encourage more of people taking walks or just being outside. I noticed it has helped a lot with myself, when I struggle or have a bad day. I feel more relaxed and calm. We walked up and down, and walked on some rocks near the beach while doing some yoga!

After we walked around and talked we decided to finally go back home and get some food after our good workout. I saw how far we had to walk up the sand dune and my first thought was “Oh my god I am going to die” and I was determined to walk up this TERRIBLE sand dune to the point I thought I was going to pass out, and I saw this beautiful angle of the water as I turned to my left and I said out loud to my friend “I AM GOING TO PASS OUT BUT I NEED TO TAKE A PHOTO RIGHT NOW!!!” Again, bless up VSCO! It totally helped with my photography skills which I am shocked that I have but I am totally getting into the whole hobby of taking photos!! Finally, after running up the sand dune for 30 minutes, I ruined my running shoes to the point I had to throw them out (I am still sad about it) but, It was a great way to get out and explore something new areas where I live! What I want to encourage everyone from this blog post is, I want everyone for a part of your day, try to go out and enjoy some time outside! Now that the weather is getting nicer I want to go out and explore, enjoy the moment! We should all enjoy the moment we are on this earth for a reason! We should focus on our needs first more than anything else! When we focus on our needs first, we feel encouraged to do more things and feel better about ourselves mentally and physically! It can have a positive affect on us ! Thanks for reading guys !

Brooke(: