~Photography Process~

“Photography is a way of feeling, of touching, or loving. What you have caught on film is captured forever… it remembers little things, long after you have forgotten everything.” – Aaron Siskind

Hi Everyone, its been a while since Ive last wrote.. I wanted to start again to combined my two loves ~Writing and Photography~ to discuss how I started to get into my craft/how I discovered the love of the art. Ever since I was younger, cameras and videos were always around me.. My dad having the video camera, making holiday videos every year to show the family who lived in another state. Then, my mom would always bring along the Kodak camera mostly when went to visit my grandma as I tried to steal it and take photos of random objects. Growing up in family were creative was always encouraged, there was always a camera anywhere we went and daily weekend trips to Michaels. During the time I started High School and telling one of my job counselors.. I really wanted to pursue a career in “Photography” they had shut down the idea and said “You won’t make that much money, doing that as a profession” hearing that my mind went blank. Then I was told I showed go into “Education” and I agreed because I was told constantly I was very good with kids and it would be perfect job for me so I had thought about it and realized maybe I should go think about becoming a teacher because everyone thought it was a good idea. During the time, I had just agreed with everyone and proceeded to follow a career in Education.

As time flew by I entered my final semester at College, I started a new job at a Daycare and I thought “This is great everything in my life is aligning, I’m starting a new chapter in my life!” Then a couple of weeks into my new job I realized how much I didn’t like it, I was so disappointed in myself but I didn’t want to give up and stayed more until I realized, “This is a career path I don’t want to take, I don’t see myself as a teacher” and I began to panic because I felt like such a failure. Not even a month into my new job I decided to quit and in my final semester I began to struggle so much with my mental health.. I felt horrible and thinking I should be happy, and everyone around me told me I had no reason to be sad.. But, I was so worried about what to do in my next step in life, “Should I find a job? Go back to school?” with those two questions going back and forth in my head I kind of became numb and thought “I’m really not good at anything so, I shouldn’t even bother” in that moment, I was only seeing black and white.. pointing out everything that was wrong with myself.. while everyone encouraged me to see in color. As Spring began, I decided to get out of the funk and proceed to go out more on walks whenever it was around my neighborhood or the park. While walking around, I started to notice more of my surroundings mostly the flowers blooming in my neighbor’s yard or how the sun rays were hitting one of the house making a beautiful glare.. thinking “Oh wow, this would be such a beautiful photo!” A couple of weeks passed and I bought myself an IPhone 8, because the camera quality was ~Top Tier~ and I wanted to get back into photography! It was in that moment, I just bought an IPhone 8 and the rest was history..

You have a moment in your life, where everything hits and you say “This is what makes me happy!” As months passed with taking photos of nature, candid photos, and of course the iconic summer sunsets. One day in October, I went to a farm near me with my sister and were looking at the pumpkins. Shocked to see that they were still Sunflowers (my favorite flower of all time) as I was starting at them I noticed a Monarch Butterfly on the Sunflower and captured this moment (right above) and I’m that person who always believes in signs.. I did some research on Monarch Butterflies because I kept seeing them everywhere, and it said “A monarch butterfly can appear to you to enable you to know that you are on the right spiritual path. Seeing the monarch butterfly indicates that, you achieved the transformation that you have been working towards. That you are on the right path towards spiritual enlightenment. I believe need to continue towards spiritual wisdom path and be ambitious as always. The “monarch” is protecting you and they will remain to be your spirit guide.” Looking back at this photo, I always think it was a ~sign~ with the monarch butterfly on the sunflower and im so glad I captured this moment. After I took this photo, it really inspired me to take this path seriously wanting to make this a Full-Time Career. I finally retired my IPhone 8 camera, for a Canon T2I and a telephoto lens to expand my creative abilities. My dad is one of my biggest supporters, he would always tell me to find my style.. something to help my photos ~Stand Out~ and be unique ! When COVID-19 had struck, I had some time to think about what I wanted to people to think when they saw my photos..

In my Photography Process, I always like to find something that really people don’t take a moment to notice.. and make something beautiful out of it ! Sometimes I view myself as the hidden object, hiding because I am not ~comfortable~ or I am scared to leave my ~comfort zone~ and when I go into Lightroom the editing process begins with using colors and contrast on the photo! The colors and contrast that make the photo pop, is how I view the people around me believing in me and see me as a beautiful object. That I do have something to give and I stand out in my own way! When im taking photos I always hope, that someone sees my message and knows you do stand out to someone and make someone’s life bright and full of color ! Photography helped me so much during a very dark period in my life thinking I wasn’t good at anything. It really helped my express myself in a way I didn’t know how to do before, and I gained so much confidence in myself. As I said before, im a big believer in ~signs~ when I was going through a tough time I would always look at this word called “Serendipity” its one of my favorite words (Also favorite movie) and “Serendipity” means.. ~The occurrence and development of events by chance in a happy or beneficial way~ On this journey, Ive had so many amazing opportunities and amazing moments ! I believe when you’re feeling down something unexpected happens to you when you least expect it ! When you start to feel good about yourself, you attract good things in your life !

In my 3rd day of being ~24~, I wanted to get back into writing. Even though my grammar is horrible and I do have many run-on sentences (like this one). Sharing my process and the backstory of my photos always gives me joy and I hope to inspire someone out there ! In conclusion to my blog post, ~im a little rusty~ thank you to who made it this far ! Wanted to take the time to thank a few people in my life. I’m beyond grateful to everyone who has been on this journey with me, My Parents, who always encouraged me since I was little to always be creative. Without them I wouldn’t be the woman I am today, I’m so blessed to call them my parents. My Friends, who are always my biggest supporter and they’re the first people I always tell about my good news too ! Always sending me cool photo ideas and always asking me to take photos of all there special moments ! My Sister, Emma who like my parents always encourages me and introduces me to cool photography ideas and opportunities ! When we go out, she always gives me cool new ideas to expand my photography and gets me to get out of my comfort zone ! Last but not least, my Boyfriend James who inspires me to achieve my goals and dreams. Thank you for always seeing my talent when sometimes I don’t feel like if achieved enough ~insert the words of affirmation~ Thank you for reading !

Brooke (:

Day 1: The Journey of Self Reflection.. 30 Days of Writing

Hi Everyone ! I know its been a couple of weeks since I last posted something but, I wanted to write and get back on my goals and dreams. Recently I have been lacking on writing my blog posts, its come to my attention its been a year of having this blog ! So for my one year I decided to do a writing prompt of my self discovery throughout this month and how I want to improve myself and see how far ive come.. Anyways Lets start !!

Day 1: Work Through Every Section of your Life and Asses what is Working Well, What isn’t, and Any changes you can make?

I looked at my Costar Today and it had said, “Is There Time for Everything you want to do Today?” I really got me thinking.. There is always things I wanna do in a day, things I want to accomplish, but sometimes life gets in the way and I wind up forgetting or loosing track of time to the point I don’t achieve the goals I wanted to do Today. So, I wanted to get on the right track and get my head focused. So I wanted to think about the things in my life what im doing right now, how I wanna change and become a better person.. what is working.. what isn’t working.

What isn’t Working Well : Currently, I noticed that I don’t really have a routine for my day I kind of just go with the flow and see how my day is and I’m now at the point where I want structure in my day. I want to plan out how my day is so I can get things done! Another one is im very attached to my phone, I can be on the phone for hours without even realizing it watching videos on Instagram to binge watching a Netflix episode out in public. I wanna take away some of the electronics I use in my everyday for an hour and get myself refocused and stay concentrated because I tend to loose interest easily and avoid tasks im suppose to do during the day and then I say “Oh I have time tomorrow!” Then, I’ll never do it.. and it will be a repeating cycle. So then that leads to the other thing in my life that isn’t working well Procrastination, which I do a lot and it annoys me its hard to have motivation it could be to making my bed in the morning to calling to make an appointment to the hair salon or something. I really want to change that because I believe it could make my life a little less complicated if I just do something without being worried or nervous, and just being plain lazy and doing it towards the last minute. The Last thing is, I noticed a pattern I have with relationships (Mostly Romantic) when the guy I am interested in starts to loose interest I tend to reach out mostly and I don’t wanna them to loose interest with me or not like me anymore. It’s been affecting me a lot because Ive noticed its become a pattern, I wanted to end that cycle and say to myself constantly “If they want to message you they will, you have people who love you and think you’re amazing if one person doesn’t want to be in your life that’s okay!” It’s sometimes hard for me, but I have to remind myself that daily and I feel better.

What Changes I Want To Make : The Changes I would like to make is, I want to be more connected to the world than being glued to my phone 24/7 which as I got older I noticed, and there is more to life than electronics. I want to take one day just one day out of my life without using my phone.. I actually slowly began doing that I got a coloring book and I feel super focused when I am coloring and it relaxes me a lot when I am stressed and overwhelmed. I want to meet more people who have the same interests towards writing and photography, this summer I met some really cool people who are interested towards photography and its really awesome when they understand what you’re talking about because I feel like when I nerd out talking about photography people look at me with two heads and I get super self-conscious so I talk about a funny story that happened to me in my past LOL. I also wanna go out more and explore nature the weather is slowly getting better and I love going to pirates cove and Avalon in the spring time ! Recently I wanted to get back into drawing im honestly like not the best but I do love being creative and meeting people who have the similar interest’s as me !! Those are the things I want to change in my life right now ! Also, be more focused with goals I want to set out to do to better my future self ! ❤ Thank you all for reading , hope you all enjoyed my daily journal prompt number one ! Check out Number Two Tomorrow !! Love to all ! Have a Beautiful Day !!

Brooke(: